Weigh In Wednesday Week 36: What is with the self-sabotage?!

Alright, dudes. This week started off really awesome. I was on track, eating well, really clean, and it was like the heavens were singing. I was pretty bummed out about the .2 pound gain, and so I was ready to buckle down and get these 12.4 pounds DONE, y’know? I was shredding, running, doing my thing.

Then Sunday came. It started with Robin’s Eggs.

and it kept going.

and going.

and going.

I didn’t even track a lot of it because I was either so ashamed of the stuff I’d eaten, or I just literally had no idea how much I’d snarfed down. I’m talking fast food, fries, the whole deal. It was an ugly few days :(. I don’t know why I couldn’t stop. It was just a compulsion that felt uncontrollable. So yesterday I was sitting at work, chatting with my boss. The whole office is pretty health conscious, and my Whataburger cup was just sitting on my desk, glaring at me, admitting my guilt.

It’s just time to stop the madness.

I went for my first run in like, 10 days yesterday. It was slow, and I seriously thought I was going to throw up a few times. Fast food is not good fuel for a run, I’ll tell you that much!

Freckleberry Fit

My right knee is constantly giving me trouble, but it really didn’t bug me during this run. I was so happy! That 11:56 is a lot slower than I’d like to be (I currently shoot for 11:30 or below), but for my first run after a binge-y few days, I was satisfied.

So then I laced up again tonight. I started a little later than usual, so I didn’t want to run too far because running at night scares the bejesus out of me. I figured I’d cut it just a little short.

Freckleberry Fit

Now THAT is a pace I like to see! My right knee decided that it was going to be a jerkface tonight, though. I’ll be icing this bad boy for sure!

Damnit. Jillian is right.

So I can basically recite the entire 30 Day Shred dialogue since I’ve done it so much. One thing Jillian Michaels says in level 1 is really resonating with me this week. I was thinking about why I seem to have lost steam when it comes to eating well. I hit fifty pounds! That’s amazing! But I’m not done yet. And even once I hit goal, it’s not like I can just quit eating right. This is a lifelong thing that I will never, ever stop doing. In the 30 Day Shred, Jillian tells you, “We don’t get to the finish line and stop.. that’s when we give it even more than we started with”.

And you know what? She’s right. Duh. ‘Cause she’s Jillian flippin’ Michaels. Why am I resigning now? I’ve only got 12ish pounds left until goal. What kind of person would I be if I came all this way, lost all this weight, and then fizzled out with just a dozen pounds to go? So I’m ready to tackle these 12 pounds. I am ready to be 145 pounds!

The Weigh In

This week, I weighed in at 156.4 pounds, a 1.2 pound loss for the week! I’m pleased to see a loss even with my two days of ridiculousness. That puts me at a total loss of 51 pounds!

Wednesday Achievements

Each Wednesday morning, I post on my Facebook page to see how you guys are doing. I love hearing about your success! Here’s some from this week:

  • Stefanie B. said: I Have survived my first 3 days of 30 day shred & down 6 pounds for a total loss if 10.4 pounds.
  • Mandy H. said: “Down .4 lbs even with a bum foot! I will take it!”
  • Dusty B. said: “I finally made it past 2 miles on the elliptical and I’ve lost 10 pounds so far.”
  • Heather H: Pushing myself harder with every insanity workout. I haven’t had any junk food whatsoever either. #proud moment!”
  • Susie M: “I have worked out for 53 consecutive days as of today!!! down 11lbs! did day 7 of level 2, jillian 30 days shred.”
  • Heather S: “I made it through C25K without crying! And proved to myself I could do it on my own when my running partner had other business to tend to.”

You guys are all incredible, seriously. You guys inspire me! Keep up the fantastic work!

You can read all of my weight loss posts in one place right here. Blammo!


  1. says

    Congrats on your weight loss, Ashley!!! That is amazing. I, too, have been battling my own weight struggle after I gained 35lbs during/after my pregnancy and it’s been almost 2 years since and I haven’t done anything about it until TWO months ago! Haha, it’s really all about staying determined and dedicated. I have 12lbs left to lose as well, and I think we can do it! Think about how awesome it’s going to feel when you finally, finally, finally reach your final goal! I can’t wait until I reach mine and I will just keep going until I do, but like you said it doesn’t stop there. Your post is so motivating! Keep going you’re doing great!!

  2. mariah says

    Hello, just found you via Pinterest. I’m starting my running career! (Actually…I’m REstarting it!) I’ve lost about 25 pounds and I have another 50 or so to go, so I’m getting ready to browse your blog for inspiration! I’m wondering what app you are using that you’ve pictured in this post.

  3. yourglamazon says

    thanks for your blog. i was thinking of giving up and came across your site. it has inspired me to keep going. i’d love to keep sharing in your journey.

  4. says

    I’ve gotten a big of the self-sabotage bug recently too. I don’t know what it up with it,b ut I haven’t run in over a week and I am not doing so good with counting calories. Hopefully getting back on track is easier than falling off the wagon!

  5. says

    ok..how do i get started……….not that i haven’t a million billion times..ok maybe not that many……….but honestly..everday i wake up and i start and then after 3 when my hubby leaves for work……….i fizzle…..how can i stop this…someone help me please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok night all :)

  6. laura says

    I have been to your site a couple of times and continue to be inspired. I am in a rut lately and feel like I don’t care, but the truth is, that I do. So, here’s to another try. Thanks so much!

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